Chapter 12: Twisted Sister

I cant get along with any body. I was always so upset at the treatment I had recieved at home but now I'm starting to feel like it's my fault that I don't have it easy. like despite my efforts to get along with my family and overcome my own issues i'm still the cause of most of my failed relationships, either with family or friends or even Goat man. my over whelming pride seems to be the overall theme to my re-occuring folly. what am i actually supposed to do though? because there's always this battle between letting people walk all over you and being a prideful cunt. where is the happy medium? does that medium actually exist? how do you express your dislikes and the feelings of someone else remains unscathed. there's no winning really. because you either hurt someone else or you hold in all the bile and negativity and hurt yourself. there has to be a way for someone to gauge these things to become neither resentful or hateful of another and cultivate forgiveness without becoming a doormat. there can be strength in humility right? or is that just some catch 22 bullshit where either way you sort of get fucked over regardless. I want to let go of being raked over the coals all the time but it happens so often that I'm starting to feel like i'm to blame. I'm honestly tired of feeling guilty all the time so my relationships with other people can grow. I've been feeling so powerless, and so angry and I know what normal mentally stable people would say, just move on and forget but how can you learn the lesson that those bad experiences were supposed to teach you if you don't reflect. Or those experiences were just trials and thee was no real lesson to begin with it was just a sucky period of time. All and all I'm floundering. but it's going to get better as soon as I get out of my head.

Scandal season premier review

Okay first of all book reviews 5-7 will be up In a few days sorry I fell behind I was busy working on my book! Yes it is almost finished I'm sorry I left you guys but let's just talk about scandal.  Okay first of all Jake & Olivia my new favorite couple I know it's going to get messed with by Fitz though. Like that's a given.
The gladiators are a hot mess and huck is now a creepy tech support guy instead of a creepy hired murderer. All the gladiators are doing separate things but I don't know what baby huck (aka that brunette I don't care for) I'm not sure what's she's doing now. The episode was tame but it was obviously very girl power since the whole premace of Olivia's first case was to protect another woman who claimed to be sexually assaulted and the background argument was the fact that women still don't make the same amount of money as men in the work place. Fitz and his wife...A hot ass mess they need to not be together but at the same time they kind of need each other since they have so many skeletons in their closets. Good premier but I expected better it was engaging but there was something lacking. But I mean I've been marathoning ash for some time so my brain is stuck on the shock and awe setting.  Tell me your thoughts in the comments.