Life update

So I went to the art & design college andet with a. Councilor and he was nice and funny and told me I should reapply again in September because I don't really qualify for the fall semester but I'd be able to take the spring semester. That should be fun though having all this extra time to myself instead of jumping balls deep into school all over again. I am going to see if I can enroll in some classes at GCC and boost my GPA and try to take a lot of art classes so when I do turn in a portfolio even though I'm not very good in the grades department they'll seem my talent and love me. I just hope I do better in college then in highschool I don't want to be that same mediocre kid in college.  I don't want to be the kid that barely scraped by. I mean yeah my life is kind of difficult but its not like I have an excuse to be a lazy ass. I want to be the very best but I know its not going to happen over night because I am still me and I still have my personality. I need to stop putting myself on a pedestal be more humble. And maybe I'll do better this time.

Art blogs

Is it just me or is it an artist thing that following other artists blogs makes you either really inspired or feel really shitty about your work. And I know thats not the intention at all but its how I feel. I mean I feel like I'm not good enough and I'm going to get torn apart in art school. All these artists I follow are so cool and great like on instagram and stuff , but I don't know what I'm doing. I don't even feel like I have an art style anymore. Or maybe I'm being temper mental and it'll come to me when its ready. For the mean time I should just focus on writing stories or learning how to drive and looking for a job. I'm going to try to tour another art campus next week. The one for the cool ass fashion school went really well but I'm not to sure about the vibe from the school. It was too out of my element I guess. Everyone was dressed up and had a full face of makeup they were all put together. The campus was nice though and the people were more friendly then I expected but I'm a simple bitch with simple needs. So I was intimidated. Maybe I'll like the other art campus. Maybe that'll be the one like my collegiate soul mate. I hope it works out. I hope they accept me. I really want to start my life. I want to see where everything takes me. I'm anxious but excited but more anxious than anything . maybe it'll work out though who knows everything might even work out.

Artwork updates

Sorry

Goat man gas been home since Tuesday . I'm sorry u hadn't updated in a while. I have artist block at the moment which is the urge to draw but the lacking of knowing what to draw. I'm going to get leggings today and maybe go see how to train your dragon 2. That's gonna be fun. I really want to see 22 jump street though but we're going to see that tomorrow. I'm so excited! This post is very short and I should have some updates from my last nasty coffee collage.

A new day is dawning

He's flying in tonight and I'm so excited I cant bare it. I'm so excited I feel like a puppy. He's coming to see me tomorrow and I just arrgh I'm gushing like a fan girl in line for a concert. Everyone is gone and its back to being just my mom and I. My grandma kept threatening to move in with us and I was hoping she wouldn't. I mean I have no reason to be worried but I just went straight for the worst case scenario. My cat scratched up my arm now I'm kinda pissed and my stomach hurts a bit. Not sure why. I'm bloated & nausious. I hope my period doesn't start tomorrow that would suck! Hope for the best & it'll all work out....that's what I'm going to tell myself anyway.

Day one

He'll be home Monday night so its pretty much 7 days. Im sort of burnt out with my family and crap so this isn't gonna be a long entry sorry guys

Day 2

I'm so tired. I've been just shopping and today my granny came over to spend the weekend with me and my mom. Idk I've been drained the whole week I'm not sure why it feels like my anxiety is more hyper active without Goat man. But I know now I like having  him around. I'm so tired. I almost finished the nasty coffee collage I started on but otherwise I haven't been very productive.