So...

I haven't really posted in a while but I don't really have a good excuse for why. I've been at home doing almost nothing. I haven't worked on a lot of art for my portfolio but I have started writing which is okay I guess. I'm still on the hunt for the art work to write about in my essay. I'm gonna go to the art museum soon hopefully. I really feel mediocre and I'm starting to doubt how good my art work is. I dont really know why I just don't feel like anything is good enough at this point. I guess its the pressure of wrangling your best works for someone to look at and dissect that's making me nervous. I haven't found a job and everything is in sleep mode in my life right now. No work. No outings unless its a family affair at least. I'm going to two doctors appointments one Friday the other on Saturday. Other than that the life of Jade is pretty slow moving. One of the skirts I ordered on eBay came in today and I washed it and now its in the dryer its one of those cute skater skirts I ordered like four I've been kind of an eBay whore for a little while.

I've been on this little self exploration thing lately. Y'know rediscovering who I was supposed to be like what I like to wear , what I like to listen to, what I like to watch, I'm going back to the basics of me instead of doing what other people want me to do or wear . I want to be comfortable in my skin and then only then can I truly be the best friend , the best lover, and the best all around person. That's what really matters getting to know yourself before becoming someone you don't even want to be.

You just gotta love life and love yourself and be happy .