I can't even

Everything seems to get slower and slower and when I ignore it so I can at least try to enjoy the tiny bit of summer I have I end up having conversations about  how I don't have a job. I really want to work and I really do wish I was like my friends and my boyfriend because they have jobs and they can drive. But I don't have any of that. I hate being a late bloomer. I was late when everyone hit the stage in puberty where you get automatically cute. I was late on dating. Everything! I feel like I wrote about this before. It just irks me because I don't like being unproductive and broke. I feel like a scrub (that TLC song about not wanting a broke lover) anyway I don't feel like an adult yet. I feel like a lazy teen and everyone else is all grown up.