Lost girl

do you ever get that feeling that you're not at home even when you're in your own house? Like i dont know how to explain it but it's like I know this isnt where I am supposed to be. I know it sounds really crazy but it has felt that way for as long as I could remember like I was some kind of alien. it's like you get along fine with people but you dont really care about what they're talking about. You make small talk you go through the motions and you still come back feeling super empty and distant. I've never understood that feeling.  but there is a home somewhere I think. somewhere where i wont feel out of place and alien. there is a tribe, this is just a rough, lonely, boring patch thats all. I mean it cant be all gloom and doom forever. like I was upset earlier because I was watching a tutorial for the new mortal Kombat X and I was thinking how I would never be able to play any of those games because I couldn'fforthe Xbox one and now its on sale for $349.  and with that I could buy it after my next 3 pay checks and get Witcher and Mortal Kombat. so there was a solution to that dilemma, then there has to be a tribe like literally right around the corner. It could be right under my nose waiting for me to stumble into their arms. I think that's what everyone really wants. is to be somewhere where they know that they are comfortable and loved. just like there is an affordable video game waiting to be played. there's always something waiting for you to find it.  i guess my problem is it just dont know where to look