Pheonix

So I found a place and I was right. my life did start as soon as i got out of my dinky little home town. I feel like that song by journey, y'know the one about the small town girl going on the train heading ANYWHERE. everything fell into place like dominoes. I don't have a lot of time to post regularly anymore but I didn't die and I'm not a hobo or a prostitute. Even though I considered it. But hey everyone has dark times but staying positive makes the dark times feel like nothing. It was time for me to get out of the negativity start fresh. even though sometimes I feel like ripping my eyes out while studying for exams and shit. i got enrolled in an internship like as soon as I moved and now I am working and studying and getting involved in this business. it's fucking rad! I love working even though I complain but the truth is i complain about everything, I'm an awkward passive aggressive cancer (the zodiac sign not the disease). I've had to put my book and my art on the back burner. I've had the worst case of writers block and i cant even have sexy fantasies right now. I feel like stress has warped my sex drive and now all i am focused on is not murdering my roommate and passing my exam. but I wanted to check in and tell you all that I survived. and if I can survive with my bitch ass there's no reason that you cant. I don't know what you guys go through but you've been pretty much watching my life deteriorate so I dug myself out of the hole you totally can.and rock bottom is the best thing that can happen trust me. because once it does you have no excuse but to claw and scratch up to the top again.  I have to go though since I need to get back to work.