Ugh!

It's difficult being the girlfriend that none of the guys like. Like I barely get along with his brothers and I've tried to get along with his friends but they all think I'm a bitch. They probably think I'm some gossipy bitch that just talks about everyone and rules with an iron clit. It's getting really close to the end of the school year but it couldn't move fast enough. I'm so ready to leave. My friends suck because they're just cunty cunt Cunts. His friends suck because they are a wolf pack without an alpha when he hangs out with me. maybe it's just pms making me feel all icky and sad. That and my dad being a little bitch about having graduation tickets for him and the rest of my delinquent family that doesn't talk to me. That make it seem like they have priority in my life even though it has just been my mom and I struggling by ourselves. He can at least pay for his own fucking tickets.  Everything is so gray and annoying.  I'm nauseous and I'm cramping I've had bubbleguts all morning I'm hungry but not sure what to eat or if to try to put food into my mouth. It's supposed to be spring and it's hella cold outside. And idk why but I'm paranoid that my boyfriend and I won't make it through the summer together.  I mean we've been together for 6 months this month will be our 7th we work really well together even though I cry over things that don't matter. But I have been cursed with the gift of being hyper compatible with Almost everyone so we'll see how this plays out. I really like him and i like how I am with him. But I've gone through friends and crushes and all that sometimes I even have "best friends. " that end up not even having my number anymore.  He is all romantic and hopeful
And I'm all like "the percentage of high school relationships that end in marriage have a low percent of possibility. " and it sucks because I know it's not fair to crush someone else's dreams but it's hard after being hurt by people who you trust and cared about like friends and family so obviously I'm going to have it tough in a romantic relationship.  And this whole nastycoffee thing I'm starting with idk it seems like people were only interested in my art when it was about bands and shit. Now when I try to start something original the only people who like it are people I've known. I want to get out there and see people wearing my clothes and having my artwork on them and being recognized for my work and talent. I wish it was summer.... I just want to go Back to sleep