Shit!

Today was absolute shit. I've been so excited for being so close to graduation and now I'm on pins and needles because of one fucking project. I did the majority of my project like the important parts and my teacher decided to talk to me about shit I can't fix! It's not like she's going to give me the project back and let me fill out what I need. There's no fucking point in being asked why it's the way it is that's not going to fix anything. I have to pass this one fucking class and it's been a pain in the ass this whole time. I might not even be able to walk the stage. I guess I counted my chickens before they hatched cause I have my outfit and everything. It feels like everything is collapsing on me. I'm losing friends like Bobby pins, my mom's depression is getting worse and I might not graduate causing my own clinical anxiety to go berserk. I mean I'm anxious about the future , I'm anxious about my choices, my relationship with people especially my boyfriend.  Everything is too much.  I want to shut out everything. I can't even draw I've been working on a collage again and it seems like it's taking eons to finish it. FUCK why does everything feel like it's out of my hands. I've never felt so helpless than I have this year. Goddammit I just want to go to bed...