Awards?

Today I won an actual award. Needless to say my petty behind was still jealous of the golden & silver tassel winners but I still got a certificate for Superior creative writing.  That's pretty awesome.  Life is starting to improve more and more each day.  Sometimes I don't even know why I miss my other friends.  I feel like they were just there for the good part like shadows they only seemed to be around for the sunshine. But my trusty Goat Man was there for me as always. He's probably the best thing that could happen to me. And this time I'm not getting the calm before the storm feeling.  I mean I do still have my issues with anxiety and feeling like I'm going to fuck up or he's going to get tired of the mess that is Jade. But he's still here for me and I hope he stays for many more events.  Tomorrow is the last day to get in some assignments so I'm going to be working on stuff In the morning and probably having to type stuff at lunch.  It's edging closer and closer to the end and it seems like it's dragging on. I am definitely improving from the person I was when Goat Man and I started seeing each other but I still have a long way to go. I know it's starting to get sappy but no one else wants to listen to me talk about my love life.  Even though I was always the only one other people could talk to about their shit. Funny how that works out isn't it?
Oh and I hit like 50 - something on my blog views. I hope it's not like the same person about 50 times looking through all my stuff. Or maybe it's my mom. Who knows it's not like I get comments on this noob blog. Anyway I should probably go the fuck to sleep as Samuel Jackson would say. I have a lot going on tomorrow I should be alert and productive. ....
Nah I'm probably going to be on Instagram or Pintrest for a few hours and then go to sleep.