Success?

Do you ever think of how success effects people? Besides the journey to a career goal what happens?  Do you keep your soul? Do you stay with the person who encouraged you or do you lose them too? I'm worried about success. I have found Zen in my humble state but what if all of that is washed away? I've been thinking about that for a while. I don't know why I just feel like everything has a price and no good really comes without me getting hurt in some way. It's sad really.  But that's all that's been going on.  I'm not sure if I would be able to handle losing the things that kept going. But most times I don't feel like I can handle anything.

Dead as a doornail

I am totally in love with Eric the vampire.  And usually I don't really prefer the cold blooded living dead. But he is a tall viking of sex. He doesn't remember what happened with sookie in dead to the world and he's all in her grill. Bill has been trying to make sookie jealous with some rando skank that thinks she's better than everyone else. There are still so many twists and turns and this book review is out of order so far from my usual linear way of thinking but yall can forgive me. Thank you guys so much for reading and checking out my blog.  That's it for tonight though my little creeps.

Definitely dead(sookie Stackhouse)

Definately Dead was the most interesting because it's more about vampire hierarchy but it was boring because of the lack of Sex lol . No more bill and no more Eric just sookie.  I am disappointed in bill because he went from being one of my favorite vampires to just this pitiful creepy ex-boyfriend. Sookie is being a bad as telekinetic mofo and the books are still hard to put down. There are more witches and I like that. They introduced another piece of man meat I.e. Quinn the weretiger. Sometimes I feel like there are way too many creatures. But at the same time she keeps it walking on this fine line between sloppy and imaginative. Overall 7-10. The only thing i have a problem with is that she always talks about things the reader already knows since I have the whole set I really don't need the flash backs.

Scandal season premier review

Okay first of all book reviews 5-7 will be up In a few days sorry I fell behind I was busy working on my book! Yes it is almost finished I'm sorry I left you guys but let's just talk about scandal.  Okay first of all Jake & Olivia my new favorite couple I know it's going to get messed with by Fitz though. Like that's a given.
The gladiators are a hot mess and huck is now a creepy tech support guy instead of a creepy hired murderer. All the gladiators are doing separate things but I don't know what baby huck (aka that brunette I don't care for) I'm not sure what's she's doing now. The episode was tame but it was obviously very girl power since the whole premace of Olivia's first case was to protect another woman who claimed to be sexually assaulted and the background argument was the fact that women still don't make the same amount of money as men in the work place. Fitz and his wife...A hot ass mess they need to not be together but at the same time they kind of need each other since they have so many skeletons in their closets. Good premier but I expected better it was engaging but there was something lacking. But I mean I've been marathoning ash for some time so my brain is stuck on the shock and awe setting.  Tell me your thoughts in the comments.

Dead to the world (book 4)

Book for is a hot mess. So much is going on and the pace is spectacular. It has this amount of charm and balancing the damsel affect with her being witty and smart. I ship sookie & Eric I really do but I still have yet to finish the books. I'm pretty sure you guys watch the show and all I have to say is shame on you because the books are so much better. But isn't that true all the time.

Club dead book review (sookie Stackhouse series)

Club Dead is book 3 in the series and it isn't as impressive as book 1 or 2. It starts very slow and bill is no longer in the picture (sigh) and sookie needs to find her missing and unfaithful vampire. She's paired up with  Alcide who in the television series is played by Joe Manganello from magic mike. The character Alcide is very plain and sort of dull. It's hard to see him as desirable because he is so boring. I mean Even his home is a "Symphony of beige." Literally. But things heat up because Eric the world's most suave vampire shows up yet again to make sookie and the reader sexually frustrated. They end up at this super gay mansion like it's ran by the gay vampire equivalent of Hugh Hefner oh its so great I loved it. And there is this character called Curly who in my mind I pictured as prince. Even though he is very straight.  It was still enjoyable just not as enjoyable as the first two. I give Club Dead probably a 7-10.

Living dead in Dallas (book 2 Sookie Stackhouse series)

Okay so the second book, I really love the cover art it's super cute and simple it's just so great. The book starts with Bill and Sookie's relationship.  It's very grounded and almost normal despite the fact that he's a civil war aged vampire. her friend Lafayette was found murdered and naked in the back seat of the local police chief's car. In order to find this out bill and Sookie end up on the way to meet up with the other vampires in fangtasia sookie is attacked by a minad an (ancient demi goddess that feeds off of pride and lust.) Then they have to save Sookie. I'm not going to give away too much more because a lot of people hate spoilers even though this book has been out forever. But anyway how I feel about this book is the writing is fast paced and the story continues to move there aren't a lot of dull parts. I like the character development especially the development of bill and sookie's relationship. I know I already mentioned it but I love it so much like I fan girl really hard about them. And the sex scenes in this book are so intense I had tingles for like 3 chapters afterwards.  They aren't scummy or badly written.  However there is too much random love dilemmas like there is Eric the vampire who is a total sex magnet who just wants the goodies from sookie. And then there is a werewolf who is the owner of the bar that sookie works at. Or the fact that all the vampires that Sookie meets are head over heels in love with her and Bill always has to steak his claim. It sort of gets old after a while because she's like property and they are passing her around. The other thing I have a problem with is that the previous book or the problem is always repeated.  But yeah over all its a good series and of you like supernatural stuff you'll like these books. I just wish that there could be a werewolf series that was this good.  Sometimes werewolf series end up just being boring and the girl is always dating the alpha or something they end up making the protagonist all series and angry because apparently all werewolves have anger issues. But I would too if all the books about me sucked.

Dead before dark book review (Sookie Stackhouse series)

Okay so you guys already know I'm into the spookier side of things so I ended up finding these books that the TV series true blood was based off of. I was interested in watching the show but I couldn't find it online so I found the audio book for the first of 12 in the series called dead before dark the sookie Stackhouse series.  And these books are pretty good. I mean the audio book is about 8-9 hours long and I finished it before I  went to bed the day I listened to it. I love the characters. Especially sookie because she's the first protagonist I have read about that felt like a normal person. Instead of whiny blank faced bella or stoic and hard core katniss or even doe eyed tris. She had a sense of humor that didn't feel forced and it was at the point where I wanted to read about her life. And bill the main love interest this vampire who was around during the civil war and he's the only one who sookie can't read his mind because she's a telepath it's romantic but I feel like the twilight author read this book and tried to make a shitty fan fiction that turned into three movies of Robert Pattinson looking constipated.  Because a lot of things are very similar.  But other than that this book has some pretty awesome see scenes. And I rarely read mainstream books with sex but they did it right in this book. My only real complaint is that the audible recording on YouTube was out of order.

SOA premier talk

Spoiler alert tonight's episode was brrrruuuuutaaaal!!! Okay so it starts off all crazy with Jax carving this swastika into this dude right and random clips of Jemma being all good granny which she is definitely not. And then the junky  is back in the show most likely a permanent character since Tara is gone and Jemma will be as well be once Jax ultimate finds out she's the killer of his wife. But jax is the darkest he's ever been and it's insane. Juice is at the junky's house and I think they'll be a couple at one point maybe not. Probably a one night deal but jemma has roped someone else into her lie and  rerouted Jax's rage onto someone else. The episodes ending is so sad and just the whole season is going to be so gloomy and bloody. I can't wait which sounds sick but I really cant. Oh and I really ship Nero and jemma. Anyway that's all I have to say about it without Giving too much else away. For the rest of this fall Tuesday will be specifically for wearing my S.O.A sweat pants and eating Nutella out of the container.

Book reviews and SOA premier talk

So I have been reading the sookie Stackhouse series aka the true blood series like the show on hbo that's been on since 2009 but the books....The books are so fun to read. I have already read two of them and my mom ordered the rest for me on ebay. But it is hard for me to find books and movies that I really like I happened to be very picky when it comes to books. But the sookie Stackhouse series has a lot of spirit and soul. It's fun and sookie Is really down to earth so it's easy to read about her and get sucked into the world she lives in. And her vampire bill SO CUTE.  He is my favorite male character even though he has kind of a dry character he's sweet and sexy and I couldn't imagine a better male love intrest. So I'm going to post two reviews besides this short summary of one. And I'm going to be reviewing the season premier of sons of anarchy on Fox tonight. That post will probably be going up at like three in the morning or something ridiculous.  I'm not sure if it's the moon's fault but sleeping has been hard and I have been emotional.  So I tend to stay up way into the next day and sleep until the afternoon.  So Keep posted.

#ootd

I think I might've found my calling I've made about 7 outfits already

Didn't work out

So the job I'd been raving about fell through because of paperwork complications but I'll never give up. I am going to be applying at some more jobs maybe Starbucks or target one of those places. But if those jobs Don't work out I'll end up working with Goat man at the groomers which is a worst case scenario because I barely tolerate him teaching me how to play video games I'm not sure if I'll like being told how to do my job from my significant other.  But other than that I signed up for a polyvore so this blog will not only be me ranting about my life to anyone who listens because I'm an entitled little shit. But I'll actually have something worth while up here.

I might've messed up

I missed the deadline for my Cal grant so I will probably be taking a year off from going to school which is okay I guess but I kind of have no real direction. I'm going to have to fill in all this stuff and upload my (just okay) portfolio and type up an essay about what piece of art influenced me the most and I finally know what that piece of art is but I was really tempted to write about Goat man. To that my councilors would've scoffed and rolled their eyes because they are cynical adults who probably see people who seem to be soooo very in love but by the end of the first year have had several different partners of each sex and are single and estranged from their high school lover. I don't know when people became so jaded toward young relationships but it might've been around the same time people stopped caring once you start talking about God. My first day of work is at noon and I still can't manage to fall asleep. I hope I can wake up so u can catch my bus. I keep debating whether or not to wear my running shoes since I will be walking all day. Or to just wear vans so so I don't look like a a goober. I hope I do well in this job. I hope that I can be a good worker and get paid quickly. I want to save up so I can get my hair braided so I can protect it during the fall and winter months. Because I despise styling wet hair during the winter it's just plain gross. I wonder what it'll be like meeting all these new people.  I hope I don't choke up and just sit there like a mute native chief staring at people waiting for them to talk to me , which they won't because they're too freaked out that I'm watching them like a hawk. It doesn't help that I have resting butch face. I guess we'll just have to see how this goes .

Hormonal heart burn

My chest burns and I have a lot of work around the house to do. I bought two new pairs of pants and I bought a cardigan. I hate getting heart burn. It's so bothersome but my lady time is over that's a plus. I can't wait until work starts it's so exciting.  I will finally be put of the house doing things instead of being a crazy recluse hiding from the outside world. I might go for a walk tomorrow. I won't be able to see goat man but I'm not sure what days I have to work and what days I have off. I need to do art school stuff but I'm not sure what to write about for my essay. Do movies count as pieces of art? Could I write my essay about that. I don't really have a favorite piece of art. I mean I like this one picture a lot by Becky cloonan (not sure if I spelled her name right) but I could write about that. All the art pieces I like are about love and couples and kissing and junk. All the smooches!!! I should right about love and gushy stuff. I like that kind of stuff it warms the little lump of coal that I have sitting in my chest cavity. What are some of your favorite pieces of art. You guys should comment and let me know

Work place hairstyles

So I'm following up on the last blog with hair inspiration for those of you going back to work and school.
Natural hair is difficult enough but it's also hard to always use the same hairstyles . 
Try something new and fun this year.

These will also prove to be useful protective styles for the future unpredictable weather. And with the cooler months rolling in there's nothing better for natural hair than good protective styling.