Hey you guise!!!

I keep disappearing hahah. It's not like I have better things to do I have just been somewhat lacking in motivation.  My portfolio sucks and I have no inspiration because all I keep drawing is Goat man or myself or doodles of original characters. I have been drawing big pieces I drew a new piece for a contest that I'll probably lose. And I've put my writing to the side as well because of writers block and spooking myself. I can't seem to do anything.  I can't even get a job because everyone is like "oh apply online." Then they're like "Maybe you should go to the Job and ask for an application. " "how about Craigslist. " "did you go on Craigslist yet?" "When are you gonna apply for the community classes?" "You need to get outside. " then I just end up being a recluse and disappearing into writing or drawing or something to run away from my responsibilities.  And feeling a shitty because I do almost nothing all the time and stare at my cats and clean house. I feel like a house wife & I feel like a mistress because Goat man has a real job while I spend most of my time keeping myself pretty until he comes over because I have nothing better to do. I hate it when I get like this cause then I just get really mopey and counter productive.  And I'm broke so I can't pay for dates or nice things. I feel like a child.  I thought you were supposed to relax in the summer. This is my last summer to not have a regular job and instead of living it up and having fun I just feel like a leech. A very charming, very talented leech.