Omg

I'm dying I am seriously craving macaroons and maybe tea. I finally got Called back for the job which is a blessing and a curse because I can't fill out the paperwork on the website and sons of anarchy is on Tuesday night. I'm not sure if I'll be able to watch it hopefully I can see it on Wednesday when they replay it so I can review it for you guys if I do have any readers that actually care about sons of anarchy as much as I do! It's going to be a cool week. A new job a new season of my favorite show. God I really want macaroons. I'm so excited to finally start up in life. I guess complaining pays off. (Just kidding).
All I hope is that I can be a good employee and keep the job. I hope I do well and stay out if trouble.  Maybe I'll meet some friends! Oh this is awesome! I'm going to need to have a hairstyle that doesn't call too much attention though that's going to be the hardest part of working is feeling out a new environment with natural hair. That'll be another topic though.  I might have to post the best natural hairstyles for a career girl. (Lol). Good night you guys ;D

What happened was...

So I walked and bussed down to glendale for my interview. I feel like I was doing good I made myself look a little stupid but in all it felt like speed dating.  Like me trying to impress someone with my personality.  It was about an hour long and then i had to walk to find a southbound bus so I could get home and it was super crowded and I was smashed between people and it was a hot mess. At least I got some kind of excersize though but my legs are going to be more fit than the rest of my body.

But being jobless and not having anything to do or contribute to society has been making me really depressed and lethargic.  I'm starting to feel hopeless. Like I'm this useless thing that always gets taken care of by everyone else. I'm not even going back to school yet.

Wish me luck you guys. I hope i get a job at least before September is over.

So excited

Finally got called back for a job and I am so stoked.  I'm just really nervous I don't want anything to go wrong tomorrow.  I feel like I have bubble guts. Hopefully it's not food poisoning from this weird sausage. I hope to god its not that I want everything to run smoothly. I don't even know what to do with my hair or anything.  I'm so flustered. Should I have a low gelled back ponytail or should I have it up in sophisticated milk maid braids. I don't know what to do. Being a girl is hard work. At least I already have an outfit. I'll probably take pics of it tomorrow before I go. 

Why? !

Today was fucking ridiculous everyone was such a cunt to me after I got home. First I went to the local library to scan my artwork to start my portfolio they didn't have a scanner. Then some fucking kids stole the bathroom key and we're fucking laughing at me like "oh yeah fucking with someone's bowel schedule in public is fucking hilarious! " and then i went next door to the vons and went to the bathroom,  then I fucking asked for food at the counter and the chick gave me so much attitude like her job is so important that she can just cunt around all day. Then I bought a meal somewhere else and it was overpriced as shit! And some fucker took out my laundry and put it ontop of the machines. So I opened their dryer and got their shit stuck in the door. It was worth it. It felt good . Other than that I had like a lovely morning I woke up to Goat man being a sweet angel baby and talking to me for a while before he went to work and then I had breakfast with his grandma. It was so nice.  She's a sweet lady. But I wasted a good outfit on people being mean for the rest of the day >:(.

Okay

So the job thing was a bummer. There are two other people who are ahead of me with the application process. I walked all the way to Starbucks and read this poetry book one of my teachers gave me before the semester ended called 'Kinky' it was okay because she was trying to meet my persona. It was cool since it went through like the life journey of a modern feminst woman using barbie as a surrogate. Needless to say it didnt meet my persona. It was a good read don't get me wrong but it's message didn't agree with me. I'm not sure if I'll just end up pissing off the only people that actually read this spew that comes out of my head but why does the modern woman hate men so much? Men aren't the enemy.  Society is the enemy.  They're so busy pushing people against each other man versus woman. White versus black. Black versus Mexican. American versus foreign.  But the whole point is that we have opposites. Water was created as well as fire. They are neither superior nor inferior to one another they are equally powerful elements that exist in the same stream of time and space. In life what is good to you may be bad to someone else.  It's useless to make a victim or a criminal in a Grey world. Society is trying to keep this clean cut right and wrong aspect when they refuse the chaos of there is no right or wrong there are just choices. Life is messy. You choose to be the victim or the villains. Blaming one type of person for your weakness doesn't make anyone stronger I would know. Comment if you guys agree or disagree :D.  I'm going to be scanning my art portfolio tomorrow staying busy as always.  I'm glad you guys read my blog and I have an outlet for my random word spew.

Guess what

I might be getting a job. It seems like the months of me chronically complaining about not having a job or having anything to do is paying off.  I feel like a Disney Princess all the time just stuck with my cats and shit all day cleaning.  I sort of feel like Disney was just conditioning girls to being stay at home moms. I mean everyone knows this already. But all the Disney Princess' 1) don't have any friends,  unless it's a family member or some magical creature that helps them get a man 2)just sit around cleaning and talking to animals 3)only really go out into the world when the prince shows up.
Totally random but it makes sense. Except princess tiana she had a job and Merida was just a fucking boss. But besides that it's pretty much the same. Lest we forget queen elsa and her giant temper tantrum for having terrible parents who repressed their daughter and then boom! Forcing her sister to find her and meet kristoff. But for the most part up until princess on the frog it's all been the same even tangled has the same basic plot. Some dude takes you out into the world and teaches you how to live.  That's not cool. But anyway,  I'm going to be going to talk to the hiring manager tomorrow and I am kind of confused whether I should build myself up and tell myself it's going to be wonderful and then it fails and I don't get the job or talk myself down and it be awesome , because right now I'm feeling sort of neutral I don't see it going positively or negatively at this point. All I can really think of is the fact that I have to walk myself up there in 90 degree weather and then be all sweaty and desperate talking to the manager. Then dick around the city for a while because Goat man is going to take me home since he works in the same area. So it's just going to be a reverse of driving miss Daisy when I do get the job since where he works is only like an extra ten minutes away.

Biker bitch (S.O.A will return) WARNING LOADS OF SPOILERS.

I am so happy and excited to announce that season seven of sons of anarchy is on its way. Things have been pretty bleak but my show is coming back I'm still not sure how I feel about Tara ' s death in season 6 because Jax lost his soul mate. And i am one of those really romantic chicks and I take that really seriously.  But I'm so curious to what the future will hold for the club. Will there be more dramatic deaths? How is Gemma going to deal with that relationship with Unser (which is GAG WORTHY) but yeah how's it going to play out? What's going to happen with mr. Sexy-fine aka Nero? And how crazy is Jax going to be this season?  He looked to be extremely intense during the preview he pretty much has this whole "I've got nothing else to lose since I lost the woman of my dreams." attitude.  And even Charlie Hunnam said "Jax is in a very skitzophernic state." Most likely harboring a need for vengeance and deep sorrow. But the real question I have is what's going on with Wendy?  Is she going to get the boys? Because most of season five was her weak ass bringing up custody,  maybe she'll end up getting what she wanted. My predictions are; Jax might die, Wendy gets the boys,  and in his rage Jax might kill Gemma because tara did say in season 4 that Jax would kill Gemma if he found out about the John teller letters talking about Gemma being involved in his death.  But we'll see oh i can't wait until September!

Don't be a little bitch

I went for a walk today to clear my brain hole. I found this gem, I found a pokemon card!  Lol.

Besides that I've been working on random projects like these shoes I decided to spookify and add some spider webs. I also started on another fruit collage for Halloween.  She's turning out pretty good accept for little things I fucked up on. I decided to use nail polish to color her in and it was cooler than I thought it would turn out.  Trying new mediums is always fun to me. I have been skipping back and forth between things I'm working on to keep my head busy. And to feel more productive than someone who just sits on their ass all day. That's how I've been feeling lately so I got the shop back together.  The book I've been working in is on its 12th chapter I think it's going to be about 30 chapters finished product. 

Hey you guise!!!

I keep disappearing hahah. It's not like I have better things to do I have just been somewhat lacking in motivation.  My portfolio sucks and I have no inspiration because all I keep drawing is Goat man or myself or doodles of original characters. I have been drawing big pieces I drew a new piece for a contest that I'll probably lose. And I've put my writing to the side as well because of writers block and spooking myself. I can't seem to do anything.  I can't even get a job because everyone is like "oh apply online." Then they're like "Maybe you should go to the Job and ask for an application. " "how about Craigslist. " "did you go on Craigslist yet?" "When are you gonna apply for the community classes?" "You need to get outside. " then I just end up being a recluse and disappearing into writing or drawing or something to run away from my responsibilities.  And feeling a shitty because I do almost nothing all the time and stare at my cats and clean house. I feel like a house wife & I feel like a mistress because Goat man has a real job while I spend most of my time keeping myself pretty until he comes over because I have nothing better to do. I hate it when I get like this cause then I just get really mopey and counter productive.  And I'm broke so I can't pay for dates or nice things. I feel like a child.  I thought you were supposed to relax in the summer. This is my last summer to not have a regular job and instead of living it up and having fun I just feel like a leech. A very charming, very talented leech.